This summer I spent a lot of time researching creative writing MFA programs. Last spring I took two creative writing courses I didn’t have to take, so to be more prepared for applying. You could say I’ve written hundreds of poems, and spent a few years getting ready for something like this. But for the following reasons I have decided that I am not going to apply for MFA programs for the ‘10 year.

1. I don’t believe my poetry is there yet.
2. I don’t read enough, and I don’t want to write often enough.
3. Starting February 1, 2010, I am on the clock; five years to the date that I must accumulate 3 years of teaching experience to receive professional certification (and not lose my initial certification). That would mean, that I would essentially have to teach everyday after finishing my MFA seemingly without missing any days to not have to apply for an extension. Basically, it’s a time crunch.
4. I’m finding that I am very excited about teaching. I want to put my full effort towards getting a teaching job. I want to make money for awhile. I really like teaching, and I’m making connection with people, so I shouldn’t halt the process for two years.
5. I don’t think I’ll get in anyways.

It’s a bummer, because I do like writing, I love studying modern poetry and the workshop process. I have spent a lot time and effort towards this big step. I think if I didn’t have anything else to do (like teaching) I would be able to focus on the challenge of getting accepted to a fully-funded MFA program. I think since late august I’ve written four poems. I’m not motivated when I don’t have a workshop to attend. I never read. I’m not a writer, right now. But the good thing is unlike teaching, writing poems is not on the clock…and I can go whenever…though my recommendations may not always be here.